Fuck it.

The night before last I was reminded of the ancient art of not giving a fuck, and why it’s so vital to my life. I was with a friend and I needed a few items so we decided to make a quick trip to Walmart. Sure, that may not seem like a daunting task to most but being from a small town it’s almost a guarantee you’ll cross at least 2-3 familiar faces that you’re not particularly excited to see, especially in the conditions I was in. Usually, I wouldn’t of given this a second thought, but I just wasn’t feeling up for the challenge. I had been painting all day, which by the way is turning out to be more than I bargained for, so much so, I have half a mind to just leave it as is: a partialy painted mess and honestly at this point, I wouldn’t care if it stays that way.

Yeah, I know …😐
Kind of proud of how my mirror turned out though😄

Anyways, my hair was a bit more tattered than usual, no makeup, and by the splatters on my skin and clothes you could clearly see I was in a losing battle with paint of some sort. I was hesitant to go in so I asked my buddy if he could run in and grab my items while I waited in the car. He responded with, “if there’s anything I’ve learned from you, it’s fuck it, just go, they don’t know your life, your struggles.” At the moment hearing him reiterate what I had jokingly said to him hundreds of times in attempts to get him to comply with the uncomfortable situations I’d put him in, thought it was hilarious, or at least funny enough to get me out of the hazy state of mind I was in and into the store. Needless to say it wasn’t as dreadful as I had imagined, it never is, and actually ended up being a fairly painless in-and-out process.

I would have never thought of my nonchalant approach to decision making as an admirable trait, but his comment made me see it in a new light. It made my heart smile, and reminded me not to take life so seriously, to act without hesitation, or my motivation would quickly dwindle down and overthinking would set in.

I’ve made more than my fair share of life changing decision based on this philosophy, you’d even think I have it down to a fucking science, butttt… I had forgotten how powerful it could be when applied correctly to everyday use. Some might call it impulsive, maybe even reckless, but ehhh, I dont need those people and that kind of negativity in my life. I’d say it’s more of a calculated risk, It’s all about perspective 🙃.

I’ve found that the most difficult aspect of this philosophy to apply is actually deciding what I want. But once the decision is made, fuck it, take the risk and just fucking do it…why not? Especially when life calls for action without giving you time to carefully weigh out your options. I try and be as prepared as can be but it seems the more I wait for the “perfect moment” or until I feel completely “ready” it becomes something I wanted or wished I would have done, not to mention, I’d never get anything accomplished.

Personally, I like to just follow the experience, go with the flow of things, break lose and act on what feels right at the moment whether it turns out to be a lesson or a cherished memory there’s definitely great value in both.🤘

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